Chapter 1: Jerks?

You know a man. At least you think you know him. He was nice, friendly, helpful and smart. You feel comfortable being around him. Never aspect things to be happen. One day, you found out this guy actually secretly admires you, and start his courtship when he know you knew. The thing is you don't see it the way he did. Yet, you didn't say anything because you don't want to loose a friend. So you just let things happen until finally one day, you sees that things is not in your control. Then you decided to put a stop. You told him, how you actually feel about him, and it is not what he think. It is not mutual.
So you hurted him. Well, of course he don't give you up so easily. The courtship didn't stop but was not as aggressive as before. He don't wish to scare you away. You think, "I m so important to him". "He does like me very much". Girls will always be girls. Honestly you enjoy his attention and affection. I don't blame you, who can resist that. Well, things between both of you just went on regularly. One day, your best friend told you, he had a new girl friend. So you think, a girl friend??? I thought I am so important to him. Men will always be men. They won't stay long. So don't aspect them to wait if you don't want them. Is a fair game, remember that....

The Notebook

A great romantic drama. I've watched this movie twice on Astro HBO but always not from the beginning. I try to look in many CD's and DVD's retail shop, but they don't have this movie. I came across one shop-keeper last week while trying to look for this movie, he said he had watched it also but from a pirated version. He said "memang tak pernah ada" the legal and original version. Sigh..... How come?

If only most love story are like story between, Allie & Noah. Is not actually a happy ending, yet i love this movie very much because of it sense of likeliness in our everyday life. We need to make decision, make up our mind, need to know what we actually need and want so that we won't regret in future. Of course it is easy to say, many including myself do not know what is our priority and life that we want until we put face to face with it. We can't run or avoid but to make up our mind. It might be a wrong decision but at least I have tried to make a decision on my own and take responsible for it. So, I've learned. Mistakes after mistakes, I learned to look back and see what have I done wrong. Frustration and dissapointment of course not only from within myself but also from my love's one which give more impact in my life.

Ok, enough of nags. So, if you gals or guys out there ever come across this movie, make sure you watch it. Highly recommended :)